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miley cyrus - the driveway

a constant overwhelmed feeling.
austin starts in about a week, and i honestly feel like it's the beginning of freshman year and i have no idea what to expect, and right about recently fear has made me reckless with my emotions and i'm everywhere. i know i need to grow up and move on with my life, i guess there's just so much pressure on me i can only let go and let God. to be honest with myself, i don't know how much i'm letting God, but i know it's something i need to do.

balance.
i don't know how to let go of you right now.

priscilla ahn - dream

i'm strangely not feeling as lonely as i thought i would this semester. i guess austin really isn't the same to me anymore, i'm used to living at home again and i don't hate it. change is exhausting - whether you like it or not, it's tiring getting used to different people and building new routines.

joshua radin - sky

i can't stop listening to this song, it's so simple, it's about this guy who loves this girl and knows he's flawed with her but keeps telling her he loves her, and it's just so hopeful and i keep replaying it, and yea it's a little pop-y for joshua radin but it's one of his more non- cry in the corner songs and i really appreciate his voice and i'm a fan of ingrid's too

wouldn't it be superb if we didn't have to do anything but sleep and listen to good music?
it would.

open my eyes, i see sky (:

this is the way i need to wake

i know it, i can explain it, i can give reasons to why it's true, i can encourage it

You first -- and everything else will fall into place

i've been told and i've told, but i need to make the decision to believe that it's true and rid apathy and not just hope that this is the answer and put it off till i'm put through for real trials but trust that it's gonna follow through and have my actions reflect this supposed belief

this is me making the choice to believe

a people undeserving

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after i left today i felt this wave of loneliness and i realized this is how it's gonna be for a while..

wee, lion

wee, lion

take me away

jeremy riddle - sweetly broken

you draw me gently to my knees,

wholly surrendered.

李玖哲 - 只牽你的手

我的車上沒有　妳的特別座
我的肩膀是你　專屬的枕頭
你說喜歡亂動　聽你的沒錯
我佔領所有　　是你的傑作
雖然你想念很久　害怕過去那來說
那是因為你愛我　我懂
要是你會氣很久　狠心不跟我連絡
也是因為你愛我　我懂

john mayer - slow dancing in a burning room

it's 4am, and i want so badly to just go to bed so i can stop thinking about how i'm not going to be in austin next semester about how i am going to tell my parents about how my friends give me false hope and never follow through, but instead i'm awake and i can't stop thinking and the one person i want to talk to i cannot and won't bother because see, we're just friends, my heart is so heavy every part of my day and i'm so sick from this false hope people have given me and i don't understand how i let people trample over me and it's my fault too because i put and let myself into each situation, and somehow when the day ends, i find myself hurt and upset and i just want to really break down but i can't because somehow i managed to turn what used to be a love and emo heart into a stupid rock, and i can't ever cry or show any type of sad emotion, and this past false hope - all i can do is think about it over and over again cause that's all i know how to do..

i don't deserve anything,
but how come i feel like my life could be better?